Life Unscripted

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Enjoy the journey.

There are only a few things that make me cry on the spot.  I don’t usually cry during movies, or reading blogs or books, unless they hit some sort of nerve connecting to my personal life.  I don’t usually cry at graduations or saying goodbyes, because I never feel like it’s really goodbye.  Surely, I will see this person again.  There is skype and facebook now, its not forever.


Then this morning I watched this video: Zach Sobiech

Safe to say I cried some serious tears for the last 10 minutes, at least.  It is worth the 22 minutes to sit and watch this, and trust me, after 22 minutes.. you wish you could listen to this guy for hours.  Watch it.

I learned so much in 22 minutes from a 17 year old with cancer.  I love the way the director of the documentary put it; that it was not because he was dying, but because of the way he was living.  To be alive is a privilege, and Zach saw that and did not waste a second of his life.  He made it count.  He surrounded himself with amazing people and did not stop living when doctors gave him a tentative deadline.  He did quite the opposite.

So often we are in a rush to get to the next step.  That could mean many different things; graduation, promotion, marriage, kids, new business, new house, etc.  Very rarely do I find myself completely satisfied with how things our.  Living in the now, enjoying the moment.  I feel like so many times I catch myself thinking about when my life is really going to start, thinking ok.. I’ll graduate next year, maybe go to grad school? eh. that’ll only prolong my life starting.. maybe i’ll go back later? Then I can work and make real money, then I can move out and then really settle into my career and THEN life will have really begun!

What a load of crap, self.  Although I can’t completely blame myself when we live in a world that is constantly asking, what’s next?  You’re in college?  What are you studying? Have you found an internship yet?  Don’t wait too long to start applying.  What about grad school? Are you gonna marry that person? When? Don’t have a boyfriend? Why?

Breathe.

Zach really opened my eyes to what it really meant to live, apart from his philosophy that it’s all about making other people smile and knowing you put it there.  He taught me to really enjoy the journey of life.  To enjoy where I’m at right now.  These are days I’m going to miss when I’m older, and I’m spending them being anxious about starting my life.  It’s happening.  Now.  Every day.  We are never guaranteed tomorrow, we hear this a lot.  But do we really understand the magnitude of this statement?  Sometimes I’m not sure I do.  But I’m willing to figure it out along the way.

Thanks Zach. RIP.

@s_greene4 always takes me to pretty places. #latergram #Gloucester

@s_greene4 always takes me to pretty places. #latergram #Gloucester

The only thing those horrible, angry men made me do is love my city even more. #lovealwayswins

The only thing those horrible, angry men made me do is love my city even more. #lovealwayswins

How is something so pretty.. so deadly? #pollenseason

How is something so pretty.. so deadly? #pollenseason

Boston will rise.

And just when I thought I couldn’t have any more pride to be from Boston…

So in love with my city.  and the country standing behind it.

Good always wins.

Light in the darkness.

Yesterday was supposed to be different for Boston.

Yesterday the sun was shining and thousands filled the streets to cheer on friends, family, strangers as they ran the Boston Marathon.  For some, it’s tradition.  It is something that we take such pride in, whether we are a runner or the cheerleader.  People travel from all over the country for this event.  It is a beautiful day for Boston indeed.  It was beautiful for a lot of reasons, and at 2:50pm, Boston was stripped of its beauty for 15 seconds.  Fifteen seconds.

You never think it will be you. Your city.

You never think it will be you frantically texting and checking in with everyone you know, just to make sure they are still alive.

You never think it will be your local radio stations talking about something you are living through personally.

You never imagine seeing those horrific videos in your favorite area of the city, streets you know so well.

I’ve struggled a lot with processing what’s happened.  First, I am safe.. along with my family and friends.  For this, I feel so blessed.  But I still feel sick, because my Boston family is not okay.  We were broken yesterday.

And then I think of what happened after those 15 seconds, and my broken heart immediately begins to mend.  Because immediately after those 15 seconds, light came through.  Police officers, EMTs, volunteers, and random civilians ran towards the explosions.  People living in the heart of the city opened up their doors to give strangers a place to stay safe and warm until the streets were safer.  No one was left alone.  Runners went straight to the hospital to donate blood.  Boston came together, asking what they could do.  

I have never been so proud to live where I do.

Not a single moment was wasted before everyone began to help.  I am so overwhelmed at the good that was seen and done, no questions asked.  Evil will not win, because there is too much good.. and that was proven yesterday.  Yesterday, horrible things happened to innocent people.  Those directly affected will forever have their lives changed.  It’s not fair.  It’s not right.  

But there is light.

We will overcome.

Boston, I love you.  You will always be my home, and I will never see anything but your beauty.  The amazing sights, the people, the passion for sports and love and life.  The history.  The pride of being a Bostonian.  That will never be taken away.  There is beauty and light in the darkness, and that is the city of Boston.  

Marathon Monday.

My heart is really heavy tonight.

My thoughts are to follow.. when I can wrap my head around today’s Boston events a little more.  But for now, I’m asking for prayer for my city. And I mean really, asking God to move in big ways and hold those affected so close to Him.

And don’t watch the news coverage more than once over.. it makes it worse.

I love you Boston.  We will make it through.

#pray #boston #myhome

#pray #boston #myhome

@dbradburn13 always gives me books that significantly reduce school performance. #bedtimereads #classreads #alldayreads

@dbradburn13 always gives me books that significantly reduce school performance. #bedtimereads #classreads #alldayreads

Sweet new kicks for spring. #myfavorite #newcolor #vans

Sweet new kicks for spring. #myfavorite #newcolor #vans

You’re a breath of fresh air in my lungs.

You’re a breath of fresh air in my lungs.

My soul sings for this crazy love! #repost #HeisRisen #Easterweekend

My soul sings for this crazy love! #repost #HeisRisen #Easterweekend